“Mas sou minha, só minha, e não de quem quiser.”

(“But I am mine, only mine, and not of whomever.”)

— Cássia Eller

Born in 1962 in Rio de Janeiro, Cássia Eller was named after the Catholic Saint Rita of Cascia and was the daughter of an Army parachutist and a housewife. Her interest in music began early at the age of fourteen when she won a guitar in a competition and began playing covers of Beatles songs. It wasn't until she was eighteen that she was able to pursue music in earnest. After her family moved to Brasilia, she dropped out of school and began to sing in a choir, audition for musicals, and work as a showgirl in an Opera. Though she initially began singing with a forro group, she soon explored other genres, including Samba and electric. There she joined a trio called “Massa Real.”

While she got a few jobs singing in bars, she eventually decided to move to Belo Horizonte, where she found work as a bricklayer, a job that gave her more independence and her own flat. In 1989, her music career really took off, as her uncle got her a meeting with the label that eventually signed her.

Declaring herself an “interpreter,” most of her first tracks were covers of songs, including songs by Cazuza, Renato Russo, Rita Lee, Caetano Veloso, Chico Buarque, Nando Reis, Riachão, Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, Beatles, John Lennon, and Nirvana. For many fans, her performances were the highlight of her career. With her deep voice and charismatic presence, she quickly became a household name, and her career was on a steep upward progression.

During her rise to fame, she became pregnant, the father of the child was a married man who died before the boy was born. By the time the baby was born, Eller had found Maria Eugenia, a woman she trusted to be her partner, raising her son alongside her. The two were married in 1990 and were together for thirteen years.

Her child in no way hindered her career, and she continued growing as an artist and in recognition. In the course of 5 months in 2001, she played 95 shows. That same year, she also made a DVD and played it on MTV.

But the workload got to be too much for her, according to her manager. On December 29, Eller suffered three cardiac arrests and died in a hospital in Rio de Janeiro. Those initial concerns focused on a drug addiction she had previously received treatment for; the autopsy showed no drugs or alcohol in her system. Though her early death at the age of 39 brought on suspicion, it seems to have been from natural causes.

Her wife Maria was given custody of their son, as was Eller's preference, and Eller was honoured by many other artists and publications after her death.

Though Eller’s career was cut short, her memory is widely held; partially through her son, who has also grown up to be quite the musician. Partially through her fans who have compared her to the great Cazuza, another queer Brazilian artist who died of AIDS before Eller entered popularity, and like her, was controversial. Though she gained her reputation from sometimes exposing her breasts to the audience during a performance, much of Cazuza’s came from the visible effects AIDS had on his body. Queer people, both from Brazil and not, can find inspiration in her success and her confidence.

One such effect strikes quite literally close to home in a transgender Edmontonian singer who began using the name Cássia in honour of the Brazilian singer, saying:

“She really campaigned for LGBT rights down there. Very fierce strong woman, I think she died some years ago. I read her story and was looking for a name that just suited me I guess. You just don’t hear it a lot. I liked the musical legacy it had. I needed something different than my birth name.”

It sometimes happens that the impact of a life is much longer than the life itself, and while there is no way to know how well she will be remembered as time passes and history books are written, it’s clear she'll be remembered in some small ways. By the people who loved her music and still think about her every time a song plays. The queer people who saw her, both within Brazil and outside of it, with her being the first time they had seen someone who might just be like them and realized that someone could be like them. They could be happy, successful, and in love, and loved, something that not all queer people are taught is possible.

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